I haven't blogged for ages!

The beauty of going slow and having to do it is you can do what you like. As in I'm blogging my life but I blog when I feel like it. Period. It's not everything but it's some parts of my life when I'm inspired to blog. I think that's very important as nothing is forced. I've got something worthwhile to share with others then.

I'm just trying to come to terms with not being able to do it or wanting or being inspired to be in my gallery and cafe anymore. What I'm doing now is being. I don't care what people think of me. I'm just being who I am.

My children

My children are all together again. I love them so much. They mean the world to me..

So I'm going to paint now

In my shed right here right now.....this is it.

Meaning

People now days are looking to live a life of meaning.

I know I do.

I know deep within me what is important to me and what I need to do.

This is how I'm going to live my life from now on...truly following my heart. Being a free spirit and letting nothing hold me back. Why I've let fear hold me back before is crazy.! Life is way too short to live in fear. That's why people procrastinate, because they're fearful of what others think or might say about them. 

Our walking with two loves of my life

Random finds

Why would you dump an old monitor out bush? Monitor lizard.

Art for arts sake

Life imitates art or art imitates life? I think it's both. They are like two circles one inside the other or like an orb of energy that twists and turns quickly that is one.

Art represents what's going on in people's heads. Also what god is doing in people's lives to send messages to others and to capture time in history.

Aboriginal art inspires me

The way those aboriginal people paint in outback Australia really inspires me. They're living off the land with the land and flowing with the earth/universe. That's how I want to be. Get back to basics. No pretenses. No airs and graces. I want to paint with them. Lie down and let it flow. The brushstrokes flowing onto the canvas. God putting it all there if I just trust.

Overcoming fear

Fear. What is fear? Up until recently I dint know that it was fear that had been holding me back! If been living my life in fear......

Now I know what it is I can tackle it head on, look it straight in the eyes and say "you're not going to beat me"!

I cannot afford to be fearful, life is too short.

Jack Elstone

Thismorning I went for a ride on my bike because I love to get out on nature and exercising. I've stopped at the cemetery to visit Jacks grave. Jack and I were together briefly in 2010. A whirlwind relationship of intensity you can't really describe..... One night Jack left my place at midnight and died almost 2 hours late at his place. He was 42. He had contracted Q fever back when he was a roo shooter and it caused endocarditis in his heart. His heart had had massive heart attacks lots of times and in the end failed. Being with Jack and he with I was a pull from the universe/god. It was undeniable and unmistakable that we are soul mates. He knew things I didn't and  gave me an insight I didn't have. I'm sure this was thru god to us. It was gods way of working in me. Very powerful. 

What is life all about? Happiness

Lastnight we watched a show about happiness and the things that are most important for people to be happy are friends and family around them, community and support and a feeling if belonging.....thinking back over the last few years I've missed a lot of that and I feel alienated. Separate from others. Maybe I don't know how to connect properly I ask myself? Maybe I'm afraid? Maybe I've got a phobia? No I think I just have to do it.

I'm starting this term with going back to yoga, doing tai Kwon do with my children and scaling the cafe right back to almost nothing so I can become involved with my children's education and create artworks and just flow.

I also want to socialize once a week with friends. After all connection with others is the most important to ones happiness.

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